the confession..

i've been admiring you for a while now.
you're the kind of guy whom i believe i could never have. i planned to keep our cordial relationship the same, until we started to chat.. i started it..

i should've ignored you. i should've stayed indifferent towards you. i should've let us silently admire each other.. if it was ever true..

instead, i allow us to hurt one another.. at least one of us will..

and i am really truly sorry..

the unquestioned..

• it's funny how you keep on saying "it's not easy to get to know me", when i don't even remember you ever try. did you ever?
• how come you never show any interest at all?
• why only now?
• what is it in me that makes you want to know me better?
• do you really feel it from the start? does it stay the same still?
• what do you think could happen?
• you're in a relationship, why take the chance of knowing me better?
• is this worth the try?
• i always seem to be the one who start a conversation, why?
• is this a game for you? better than nothing at all?
• don't you feel like you're betraying your relationship?
• lastly.. do you have any idea how much this could affect me? it is never easy to have your heart broken.. and i have a feeling mine will.. and where do i go from there?

broken hearted

i feel broken hearted today.. i had an unexpected conversation yesterday, and i thought i could live with it just fine as it was nothing special.
but since the 'conversation' i had was with someone i actually admired, it apparently bothers me more than i could think of.

i immediately feel i shouldn't have allowed myself to be more open that i used to because i know i will end up hurting myself. i already am..

and now i feel really, really stupid and sorry.. deeply & terribly..

-the story of chibi & tamae-

slightly different from the original anime, we're simply borrowing the names of the characters. so please don't sue us... ; p

so, chibi used to be one of the most outstanding students at the School where tamae used to work for. they were never close. they were civil.
chibi has always been this bubbly and fun girl to be around with. and she represents the two words tamae could never embraced.. imagination and creativity.
tamae, was never too friendly.. distant, even... cold.. and truly bitchy. so not like the actual character in the anime huh?

well, one day, tamae applied to an office where chibi works for. it was the beginning of their friendship, which is now so much alike like the anime ^_^

tamae is so grateful they could be friends. tamae has changed quite a lot, not only in terms of her weight loss which she now gradually gain back! but also her personality.. she's more subtle.. in a way..
tamae regards the friendship so much, that she felt lost one day where she had to go to work and found out chibi wasn't around..

tamae was dealing with an irritating project that time. she needed the moral support, but she knew chibi was also tired from all the work and she needed the in lieu leave. so tamae understood..

tamae wants chibi to know, she's glad she have met her and be a friend to her. despite chibi is younger, but tamae doesn't care. chibi is the one whom tamae can daydream with, laugh out loud with, share hilarious stories with... and most importantly, enjoy yummy cookies together with.. ^_^

so chibi, thank you.. tamae's world is now a happier place with you around ^_^